Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam: It's Official: St Stanislaus is in Schism. Pray for them!

I found this really interesting to read, even though it doesn't involve my diocese or anything. A parish has been supressed by its Bishop because the parish board refused to acknowledge ecclesial {sp?} authority in its bylaws or in practice.

Read!

catholicpodcasts

catholicpodcasts

Link Dump from my most recent Live Journal entry

http://www.cwfa.org/articledisplay.asp?id=9677
Crud like this is why I hate paying Resident Hall activity fees and I hate my tuition going to Student Senate without asking my input. While AQ hasn't pulled anything this bad *yet* (that I know of,) the same thing goes on here all the time. My money goes towards things I have no desire to subsidize in any way.

http://www.cwfa.org/articles/9673/MEDIA/family/index.htm

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/122005mf.asp

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/82005a.asp

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/122005g.asp and related: http://www.pluggedinonline.com/movies/movies/a0002427.cfm

http://www.pluggedinonline.com/movies/movies/a0002427.cfm
I have no complaints about Wal-Mart, myself. My neighboor across the street back home has worked there since I was small, and she's grateful to have a job period. Also, 90% of what you see in my dorm room or on my body comes from Wal-Mart, and I couldn't afford any of it otherwise, or to be more precise, my parent's couldn't, and since I'm jobless, they pay for those things. They didn't push anyone out of business when they moved into Orland Hills, as at that time that part of town wasn't even developed yet. It was literally grass-land in that area, according to my parents. There ARE none of these "Mom and Pop" shops people holler Wal-Mart puts out of business. Oh, there's a few on Oak Park Avenue, the "historical" part of my town, but otherwise everything's chains anyway, McDonalds, Burger King, K-Mart, Sam's Club, and some chains that the MI readers here probably wouldn't be familiar with (our own versions of Meijer.) LOTS of car dealerships, too. No one cares when one chain bumps out another, and there are some things, like Subway, McDonalds, and Doge dealers, where there are more than one I can go to in easy distance of my house. Translation: my family partronizes Wal-Mart and will continue to do so, and I'm not forgoing food and clothing myself just so I can tout around that I don't, and that's literally what it would come to if I were to tell Mom and Dad to not buy me anything from a Wal-Mart. Wal-Mart, FYI, also isn't the only place where before the item gets to the store, the place it's made before that doesn't treat its workers well. If that I patronize Wal-Mart voluntarily bugs you, you don't have to be freinds with me and you don't have to read my blog. Both of us have free will. My blog = my soapbox. [/rant]


http://www.centerforsecuritypolicy.org/index.jsp?section=papers&code=05-D_63
Gee, let's think about this..renew the Patriot Act or get a call one day to find out that a plane flew into the buidling my dad works in? HARD CALL!!! Besides, if you're totally innocent and have nothing to hide, then you shouldn't have a problem, anyway.

http://www.judicialwatch.org/corrchron/archives/2005/12/clinton_officia.html

http://www.townhall.com/opinion/books_entertainment/reviews/EmilyYee/178838.html
This is an opinion/book review.

http://gcc.savvior.com/Happy%20Holyday.php


http://www.catholicnewsagency.com/new.php?n=5622


http://www.afa.net/progressive.asp
The first story in here just makes me SO DARN MAD!!!

http://www.humaneventsonline.com/article.php?id=10789
Columbian Roe vs. Wade prevented.

http://www.opinioneditorials.com/guestcontributors/jbell_20051211.html
This is another one of those articles that convinces me I'm NOT crazy. Seriously, even just looking at Mom's friends, (save Joan and her two friends from high school that she still has contact with,) they just let their kids run wild and then can't figure out why their kids are smoking pot, cutting class, etc. ESPECIALLY WHEN THE FREAKIN' PARENT IS A POT-HEAD!!! -_-

http://www.humaneventsonline.com/article.php?id=10778
Parodies rock! =-P

http://www.renewamerica.us/columns/vernon/051211

http://www.worldmag.com/subscriber/displayarticle.cfm?id=11359
http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/72005b.asp
There is some good news, however.

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/92005gst.asp
As Dr. Marshall is fond of saying, words do matter. This can explain why.

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/82005f.asp

http://www.bpnews.net/bpnews.asp?ID=22246
Hey, it's not just the Catholics against this.

http://www.lifenews.com/bio1213.html
So in other words Aquinas College will want him as a commencement speaker next year? -_-

http://www.lifenews.com/state1308.html
If it weren't New York, I'd expect it to be California. From the article: "According to the New York Metro, the ratio of abortions to births in some parts of the city is one to one."

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/62005b.asp

http://abcnews.go.com/US/Beliefs/story?id=1387602

http://www.azcentral.com/news/articles/1207nocarols.html

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/10395459/

http://www.renewamerica.us/columns/gaynor/051210

http://www.family.org/cforum/news/a0038817.cfm

http://www.worldcongress.org/WCFUpdate/Archive06/wcf_update_650.htm

http://news.ft.com/cms/s/48535a0c-6756-11da-a650-0000779e2340.html
This is actually just a tech article. =-P

http://www.techcentralstation.com/092605E.html
Asthma and Air Pollution. Read it because I have asthma. However, I was asthmatic before I was obese or anything, but given how almost all of my mom's side of the family smokes, the air pollution angle would explain it. I developed my allergies about a year after the asthma. Love how those two egg each other on. =-P

Link Dump from my most recent Live Journal entry

http://www.cwfa.org/articledisplay.asp?id=9677
Crud like this is why I hate paying Resident Hall activity fees and I hate my tuition going to Student Senate without asking my input. While AQ hasn't pulled anything this bad *yet* (that I know of,) the same thing goes on here all the time. My money goes towards things I have no desire to subsidize in any way.

http://www.cwfa.org/articles/9673/MEDIA/family/index.htm

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/122005mf.asp

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/82005a.asp

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/122005g.asp and related: http://www.pluggedinonline.com/movies/movies/a0002427.cfm

http://www.pluggedinonline.com/movies/movies/a0002427.cfm
I have no complaints about Wal-Mart, myself. My neighboor across the street back home has worked there since I was small, and she's grateful to have a job period. Also, 90% of what you see in my dorm room or on my body comes from Wal-Mart, and I couldn't afford any of it otherwise, or to be more precise, my parent's couldn't, and since I'm jobless, they pay for those things. They didn't push anyone out of business when they moved into Orland Hills, as at that time that part of town wasn't even developed yet. It was literally grass-land in that area, according to my parents. There ARE none of these "Mom and Pop" shops people holler Wal-Mart puts out of business. Oh, there's a few on Oak Park Avenue, the "historical" part of my town, but otherwise everything's chains anyway, McDonalds, Burger King, K-Mart, Sam's Club, and some chains that the MI readers here probably wouldn't be familiar with (our own versions of Meijer.) LOTS of car dealerships, too. No one cares when one chain bumps out another, and there are some things, like Subway, McDonalds, and Doge dealers, where there are more than one I can go to in easy distance of my house. Translation: my family partronizes Wal-Mart and will continue to do so, and I'm not forgoing food and clothing myself just so I can tout around that I don't, and that's literally what it would come to if I were to tell Mom and Dad to not buy me anything from a Wal-Mart. Wal-Mart, FYI, also isn't the only place where before the item gets to the store, the place it's made before that doesn't treat its workers well. If that I patronize Wal-Mart voluntarily bugs you, you don't have to be freinds with me and you don't have to read my blog. Both of us have free will. My blog = my soapbox. [/rant]


http://www.centerforsecuritypolicy.org/index.jsp?section=papers&code=05-D_63
Gee, let's think about this..renew the Patriot Act or get a call one day to find out that a plane flew into the buidling my dad works in? HARD CALL!!! Besides, if you're totally innocent and have nothing to hide, then you shouldn't have a problem, anyway.

http://www.judicialwatch.org/corrchron/archives/2005/12/clinton_officia.html

http://www.townhall.com/opinion/books_entertainment/reviews/EmilyYee/178838.html
This is an opinion/book review.

http://gcc.savvior.com/Happy%20Holyday.php


http://www.catholicnewsagency.com/new.php?n=5622


http://www.afa.net/progressive.asp
The first story in here just makes me SO DARN MAD!!!

http://www.humaneventsonline.com/article.php?id=10789
Columbian Roe vs. Wade prevented.

http://www.opinioneditorials.com/guestcontributors/jbell_20051211.html
This is another one of those articles that convinces me I'm NOT crazy. Seriously, even just looking at Mom's friends, (save Joan and her two friends from high school that she still has contact with,) they just let their kids run wild and then can't figure out why their kids are smoking pot, cutting class, etc. ESPECIALLY WHEN THE FREAKIN' PARENT IS A POT-HEAD!!! -_-

http://www.humaneventsonline.com/article.php?id=10778
Parodies rock! =-P

http://www.renewamerica.us/columns/vernon/051211

http://www.worldmag.com/subscriber/displayarticle.cfm?id=11359
http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/72005b.asp
There is some good news, however.

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/92005gst.asp
As Dr. Marshall is fond of saying, words do matter. This can explain why.

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/82005f.asp

http://www.bpnews.net/bpnews.asp?ID=22246
Hey, it's not just the Catholics against this.

http://www.lifenews.com/bio1213.html
So in other words Aquinas College will want him as a commencement speaker next year? -_-

http://www.lifenews.com/state1308.html
If it weren't New York, I'd expect it to be California. From the article: "According to the New York Metro, the ratio of abortions to births in some parts of the city is one to one."

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/62005b.asp

http://abcnews.go.com/US/Beliefs/story?id=1387602

http://www.azcentral.com/news/articles/1207nocarols.html

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/10395459/

http://www.renewamerica.us/columns/gaynor/051210

http://www.family.org/cforum/news/a0038817.cfm

http://www.worldcongress.org/WCFUpdate/Archive06/wcf_update_650.htm

http://news.ft.com/cms/s/48535a0c-6756-11da-a650-0000779e2340.html
This is actually just a tech article. =-P

http://www.techcentralstation.com/092605E.html
Asthma and Air Pollution. Read it because I have asthma. However, I was asthmatic before I was obese or anything, but given how almost all of my mom's side of the family smokes, the air pollution angle would explain it. I developed my allergies about a year after the asthma. Love how those two egg each other on. =-P

Link Dump from my most recent Live Journal entry

http://www.cwfa.org/articledisplay.asp?id=9677
Crud like this is why I hate paying Resident Hall activity fees and I hate my tuition going to Student Senate without asking my input. While AQ hasn't pulled anything this bad *yet* (that I know of,) the same thing goes on here all the time. My money goes towards things I have no desire to subsidize in any way.

http://www.cwfa.org/articles/9673/MEDIA/family/index.htm

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/122005mf.asp

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/82005a.asp

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/122005g.asp and related: http://www.pluggedinonline.com/movies/movies/a0002427.cfm

http://www.pluggedinonline.com/movies/movies/a0002427.cfm
I have no complaints about Wal-Mart, myself. My neighboor across the street back home has worked there since I was small, and she's grateful to have a job period. Also, 90% of what you see in my dorm room or on my body comes from Wal-Mart, and I couldn't afford any of it otherwise, or to be more precise, my parent's couldn't, and since I'm jobless, they pay for those things. They didn't push anyone out of business when they moved into Orland Hills, as at that time that part of town wasn't even developed yet. It was literally grass-land in that area, according to my parents. There ARE none of these "Mom and Pop" shops people holler Wal-Mart puts out of business. Oh, there's a few on Oak Park Avenue, the "historical" part of my town, but otherwise everything's chains anyway, McDonalds, Burger King, K-Mart, Sam's Club, and some chains that the MI readers here probably wouldn't be familiar with (our own versions of Meijer.) LOTS of car dealerships, too. No one cares when one chain bumps out another, and there are some things, like Subway, McDonalds, and Doge dealers, where there are more than one I can go to in easy distance of my house. Translation: my family partronizes Wal-Mart and will continue to do so, and I'm not forgoing food and clothing myself just so I can tout around that I don't, and that's literally what it would come to if I were to tell Mom and Dad to not buy me anything from a Wal-Mart. Wal-Mart, FYI, also isn't the only place where before the item gets to the store, the place it's made before that doesn't treat its workers well. If that I patronize Wal-Mart voluntarily bugs you, you don't have to be freinds with me and you don't have to read my blog. Both of us have free will. My blog = my soapbox. [/rant]


http://www.centerforsecuritypolicy.org/index.jsp?section=papers&code=05-D_63
Gee, let's think about this..renew the Patriot Act or get a call one day to find out that a plane flew into the buidling my dad works in? HARD CALL!!! Besides, if you're totally innocent and have nothing to hide, then you shouldn't have a problem, anyway.

http://www.judicialwatch.org/corrchron/archives/2005/12/clinton_officia.html

http://www.townhall.com/opinion/books_entertainment/reviews/EmilyYee/178838.html
This is an opinion/book review.

http://gcc.savvior.com/Happy%20Holyday.php


http://www.catholicnewsagency.com/new.php?n=5622


http://www.afa.net/progressive.asp
The first story in here just makes me SO DARN MAD!!!

http://www.humaneventsonline.com/article.php?id=10789
Columbian Roe vs. Wade prevented.

http://www.opinioneditorials.com/guestcontributors/jbell_20051211.html
This is another one of those articles that convinces me I'm NOT crazy. Seriously, even just looking at Mom's friends, (save Joan and her two friends from high school that she still has contact with,) they just let their kids run wild and then can't figure out why their kids are smoking pot, cutting class, etc. ESPECIALLY WHEN THE FREAKIN' PARENT IS A POT-HEAD!!! -_-

http://www.humaneventsonline.com/article.php?id=10778
Parodies rock! =-P

http://www.renewamerica.us/columns/vernon/051211

http://www.worldmag.com/subscriber/displayarticle.cfm?id=11359
http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/72005b.asp
There is some good news, however.

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/92005gst.asp
As Dr. Marshall is fond of saying, words do matter. This can explain why.

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/82005f.asp

http://www.bpnews.net/bpnews.asp?ID=22246
Hey, it's not just the Catholics against this.

http://www.lifenews.com/bio1213.html
So in other words Aquinas College will want him as a commencement speaker next year? -_-

http://www.lifenews.com/state1308.html
If it weren't New York, I'd expect it to be California. From the article: "According to the New York Metro, the ratio of abortions to births in some parts of the city is one to one."

http://headlines.agapepress.org/archive/12/62005b.asp

http://abcnews.go.com/US/Beliefs/story?id=1387602

http://www.azcentral.com/news/articles/1207nocarols.html

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/10395459/

http://www.renewamerica.us/columns/gaynor/051210

http://www.family.org/cforum/news/a0038817.cfm

http://www.worldcongress.org/WCFUpdate/Archive06/wcf_update_650.htm

http://news.ft.com/cms/s/48535a0c-6756-11da-a650-0000779e2340.html
This is actually just a tech article. =-P

http://www.techcentralstation.com/092605E.html
Asthma and Air Pollution. Read it because I have asthma. However, I was asthmatic before I was obese or anything, but given how almost all of my mom's side of the family smokes, the air pollution angle would explain it. I developed my allergies about a year after the asthma. Love how those two egg each other on. =-P

Catholic:Under The Hood

Catholic:Under The Hood

Catholic:Under The Hood

This is probably the most exaustive list of Catholic podcasts I've seen, as well as being a good podcast in its own right.

Why can't I freaking sleep?

Let's see...logged off of Second Life (click this entry's title for the link; tell 'em Ayumi Sapeur sent ya' ;-) ) around 4am (I think) and now it's 7am and I haven't slept a wink. Tossed and turned and tried every sleeping position I could, and nothing. Just took a hot bath. Didn't help. I don't understand why this room is so hot all the time, even when I have the A/C running full blast (granted, we're talking a window-unit here,) and my own fan blowing right on me, and the heat is totally off. According to the thermometer on the thinger, it's still over 80F in here. Bah!!! Give me sleep or an absentee ballot! (Oh wait...Illinois isn't voting on anything this year...aw darn. Next election the state does have my sister Michelle will be old enough to vote. She and I will cancel each other out on everything except possibly some local referendums, if any.

Really need to practice BAD for the band concert Sunday, but because I couldn't sleep I've been chewing my bottom lip, and it is now quite raw and partially swollen on one side (though I think that's from possibly accidently biting it in my sleep Sunday night or something, because it was like that when I woke up yesterday.) I want to play the concert Sunday, especially because I really like and really miss band since I can't take it this semester, but I haven't touched the French Horn to practice it since Commencement in May, and I have today through Saturday (and only early in the day on Saturday, because hard practicing the day before a concert is suicide,) to learn all this stuff. *Sigh* Brought it on myself, though. My own darn fault. Wondering, though, if I realize I'm going to lay a major egg on Sunday, would it be better for me to fake sick or something or to just show up and fake-play or whatever? Are they both equally wrong and stupid? I dunno...

And where is God to me right now? I feel like I keep forgetting about Him until I do my night prayers before bed, and even then I'm still distracted. I feel too drained (from what?!) half of the time to do any real-life Christian fellowship, and even on Second Life, the chances for such is rather limited (and forget about anything distinctly Catholic =-\ ) so I wind up in the "least hazardous" of secular places. (I don't mean that as a slam on anyone-I've met alot of very nice people there, Christian and not.) Got a nasty IM in-game tonight from a girl with the same last name and a close first name to my character's, and basically accused me of trying to force my opinion on others. (Mind you, this was in a ranting IM from someone I'd never met before and I recieved it while I was AFK for a bit in the bathroom...) Riiiight...somehow having my own opinion automatically means I'm going to try and force it on others. (Seeing as how it's always the far-left [I mean mostly the loony-bin far-left, to where even Michelle disowns them,] always does the exact same thing and then accuses anyone not of their exact viewpoints of being intolerant.)

I lost my train of thought...my eyes hurt from typing this without my glasses on. I'm getting a new pair when I go home for break. I'm so tired so often and it doesn't make any sense. I think my body's alright, but the "oomph" of life is missing. I want to get to Confession, but the sleeping thing and my own miscillanious {sp?} moronicness is keeping that from happening. I wish I had a car so I could drive down the street (big, busy street) to St. Isadore's--Fr. Don hears Confessions before and after every Mass. Fr. Jim, at St. Thomas', is a great confessor by all means, but he only hears them before the 5PM Mass on Saturdays.

*Sigh...*

I want my mommy. That thought runs through my head alot these days, but I don't know why. I love my mother to pieces, of course, and am greatful for all she has done and continues to do for us in the family, but when she gets into a "mood"...oh Christmas things get heated in the house. Last time it happend, (over fall break,) it was decided it was my fault she was in said mood, and Eileen actually kicked me for it. She's lucky I'm not anywhere near as violent as I pretend to be, and that I have alot better control of my temper than I did when I was her age. Otherwise, she'd have been black-and-blue after the first kick. I couldn't even muster up the physical or emotional streignth to hit her back. She's my little sister and I love her too much, as cheesy as that sounds. Dad might be home from MN for good soon. I might have already said that. I don't remember. I'm not looking forward to returning to a house where he's there full-time. It's always so much more noisy and tense when he's home, because he feels it's his job to yell at everyone about everything that's not done as he thinks it should be. I'm still embarassed for that poor Geek Squad guy at Best Buy that Dad reamed out over the summer. Dad walks off and I get stuck holding the bag and having to apologize up and down to this guy for Dad being an idiot (though not in those words.) And then Dad goes off and says I embarass him in public because I use the napkin in a restraunt as a napkin rather than laying it on my lap to fall on the floor and me to forget about until I spill or whatever. He's the most arrogant hypocrite I know. And of course, I get his temper. And darn near all his genes. (Granted people on his side of the family live forever, it seems--we're all just falling apart by the time we do die. =-P) Mom's side's smoked/drank themselves to death for so long I don't know if I can really gauge a life-expectancy for her gene pool. She and Aunt Gina are the only two non-smokers in her family, but Aunt Gina is one of those people who Lysols her house (and as Mom found out when they went to Las Vegas together, the hotel DOORKNOB,) to the point where she has no immunity to anything. If she and Uncle Ron had ever had kids, I can see those kids having been in and out of school all the time with every single bug under the sun and Aunt Gina having a fit about it. Mom got over caring too much by the time I was in first grade. I think she figured that I'd already brought home chicken pox (from day care,) and she had caught them while pregnant with Michelle (I want to say it was either late in the 2nd trimester or early in the third,) and she and Michelle had made it, so she didn't really feel threatened by anything else I could bring home. As it happened, I almost never got sick after getting sick alot in first grade. I remember in 2nd and 6th grades I had perfect attendance for the entire year.

OK, I think I've bored myself enough with my own ramblings to try sleeping again.

And for anyone who reads this who knows my friend KT, I'm psyched to announce that she and her husband are expecting. ^_^ Whether you know them or me or not, please keep them in your prayers. ^_^

Bis Spater! / Ja ne!

I feel

Bored stiff....

Coolness

Podcasts are so much fun. =-P I swear, they're a better argument for an iPod than music is. I should update this more often. Doing some Visual Basic homework right now. BORING!!! -_-

Wish there were people around on IM to talk to. =-
Later.

Strong Sad's Lament

Strong Sad's Lament

PHATMASS - Catholic Defense Directory

PHATMASS - Catholic Defense Directory

Onerock Online Forums -> Condom Campaign Geared For Wyd

Onerock Online Forums -> Condom Campaign Geared For Wyd
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I AM GOING TO HURL!!!!

I love how it only goes one way...

Will transfer this post to Live Journal later, but since I don't have as many readers here, I don't mind letting my mind just fall out on here. Anyway.

So my 21st birthday is this Friday, but I'm going to be in Michigan then with the Veritas campout. My parents' 25th anniversary is this Tuesday, but that's during the week, and have fun getting ahold of a priest then. =-P They wanted to run into and talk to the priest who married them, baptized me, and confirmed my dad. He's at St. Bede's, on the south side of Chicago. Their former pastor is in jail. Poor parish. However, I was really psyched to see the old style of confessionals and a COMMUNION RAIL!!!! ^_^ However, according to my parents, now that Fr. Bill is their pastor, within 5 years all of that will probably be gone and the parish will be thourghly "modernized." And they talked like this was a good thing!!! This poor parish has suffered enough lately, and now this priest is going to take away their sense of their Catholic heretage.

On another peg, Fr. Bill considers Mother Angelica, from EWTN, to be the worst thing that has happened to the Catholic Church. This after giving a whole long lecture on how we should accept everyone's opinions, even if we don't agree with them. And my family thinks I'm a hypocrite. This is also the same priest who told my parents that it was OK to use contraception. Know how that makes me feel, as the oldest child? Like an egg that just happened to get lucky. Ick. No child should grow up feeling like that. This priest also thinks everyone, Catholic and not, should recieve communion, not discerning the Body and Blood of Christ at all. THIS IS NOT A COOKIE AND SODA!!! IT'S THE BODY, BLOOD, SOUL, AND DIVINITY OF JESUS CHRIST, OUR LORD!!! Fr. Bill basically thinks I'm an idiot, but seems to think I'll "grow out of it" or some junk like that. My parents were impressed, though, that I bit my tougne. WANTED to go after his jungular vein. Priests like him do grave harm to the Body of Christ. My family was all like, "He can get anyone to come back to the Church." Hardly. He just tells them they're still in the Church, whether they believe it or not. And I thought St. Julie's taught bad theology.

Since it's almost 2AM CDT, I'm going to end this for now. My only parting comment is that the cantor couldn't sing for a darn. Ah well. And the altar server oufits were ugly. Ah well again. Can we just all go back to the Tridentine Mass or something, where people didn't horse around anywhere NEAR as much. Oye.

Guten Nacht!

An update...

Soooo bored....I should be cleaning my room, but it's so cramped in there right now because of everything being everywhere. Grrr...I have to work Saturday. I don't want to. At least it's a country concert, so things should be reletivly tame. I can't believe I'll be 21 in a week...freaky. That also means one week to campout! ^_^ Wheee!!! And I get to see my Sara friend! One of our friends was joking a week or so ago that all of us girls who are on anti-depressants should form the "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pills." Let's see. I've tried Lexapro, Zoloft, Effexor XR, and am settling on a non-time-release version of Effexor. I'm just glad I found something that worked reletivly quickly. Sara's been on the pill merry-go-round for years now. =-(

Sounds like Michelle's up. Oh dear...

Should...clean...room.......don't...want...to...Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends rotting my brains...will have no brain cells left for school...

I want a cookie. Or a whole box of them--Girl Scout cookies, thin mints or carmel delights....MMMMMMM...

Alright, I really do need to do something constructive today. Time to put CDs on my clock-radio and finnish gutting my room. Some of the stuff I cleaned out yesterday hasn't moved since I moved into the room in the summer between 5th and 6th grade. Packrat/slob extrordinare {sp?}!

Bis Spater / Ja ne!

Dangit all...

What do I have to do to get rid of these stupid democrat adds? Grrr...

NEWSFLASH TO GOOGLE!!! I AM NOT A DEMOCRAT!!!! GOP4ME!!!!

OK, back to rotting my brains on television...

Eh?

Where is Google getting these adds from? I'm REPUBLICAN, DANG IT ALL!!!!!!!

Blech

Blech--my stomach feels like trash. I want to go back to sleep. Going back to school would rock, too, but I'd like to take my bed from home with me. Soooo much comfier. {sp?} I'm a little antsy about classes and all. I'll be fine...I hope. Worried about other stuff, too, but that's for a private entry on my Live Journal.

I get to see the shrink this week. Found my referall, but the paper I wrote the appointment time (I know the date,) and address on got thrown out. Why am I not surprised?

*Yawn* I hope Meg's OK. She seemed OK when I called her today, though tired, but she has been working today. Better at the vet than at Tweeter (though I'm tempted to ask her sometime which job leaves her smelling worse at the end of the day. ^_~)

I want more anime. And some Pocky. Would anyone like to get me some Pocky? There's like NOWHERE to get Pocky around here, except this gross almond stuff at Suncoast in the mall. Um, no. Meg gave me some for Christmas this past year, and it was OK enough, I guess, but I wouldn't repeat the experience. I want strawberry Pocky...or dark chocolate....mmmmm... I read in last month's Shojo Beat that manga anthologies in Japan can be the size of an American phone book. I wish I had one of those. I read fast when I'm pulled in, and manga is no exception.

Watching X-Play. To their credit, the hosts gave plenty of stern warnings that for their first review the children should leave the room. I would obviously rather they don't cover that kind of stuff, but at least they give a heads up before they do. I know a lot of people today don't want to bother going the extra mile, but I'll be happy if they take the extra inch, darn it.

OK, tummy isn't happy with me today.

Bis Spater/ Ja Ne!

Poke the Penguin

Poke the Penguin

FOXNews.com - The O'Reilly Factor - Talking Points - Memo to a Judge

FOXNews.com - The O'Reilly Factor - Talking Points - Memo to a Judge

BillOReilly.com: Bill's Current Column

BillOReilly.com: Bill's Current Column: " Extreme Dean

By: Bill O'Reilly for BillOReilly.com
Thursday, Jun 16, 2005
This week a bunch of newspapers in places like Cincinnati and Pittsburgh tried to rally support for the beleaguered Howard Dean, and I am with them... well, somewhat.

The thing you've got to love about Howard Dean is that he is sincere in his hate. No phony is he, Dean despises Republicans and everything for which they stand. If it were up to Dean, those white, Christian layabouts would be shunned, scorned and mocked. Come to think of it, it is up to Dean. As the DNC chief, he is launching personal attacks against Republicans all over the place.

Honestly, where would Howard Dean be without hate? Last year it made him the darling of the far-left internet crowd, which poured millions into his presidential campaign. Dean's loathing of the GOP sent the self-described 'Deaniacs' into ecstasy. The more Dean poured on the vitriol, the more money came rolling in. Dean embraced abhorrence with a vengeance Joseph McCarthy would have admired.

But that was then, and this is now. Some democrats like John Edwards and Senator Joseph Biden have recently criticized Dean's personal attacks, but that's akin to ordering salmon for dinner and then, when it arrives, complaining that you don't like fish. Democrats knew Dean was a character assassin when they elected him chairman of the National Committee. This is like the scene in 'Casablanca' when Claude Rains announces he's 'shocked' there is gambling going on in Rick's place.

The truth is that hate has been very good to Howard Dean. Without his animus, he'd probably be running a bed and breakfast in Bennington. Dean broke away from the bland political crowd by being a mean guy. He relished calling people names and surrounded himself with media smear merchants. Can you imagine a responsible politician saying publicly that he 'hates' Republicans? That's alienating about half tThat's alienating about half the country with one sentence. So much for Dean's insistence that the Democrats are the party of "inclusion."

To be fair, at the height of the Clinton bashing hysteria, there were Republican politicians throwing defamation bombs all over the place. But they were very specific. Clinton was the devil. The GOP did not expand its hatred to include Sally and Joe who voted for the man. They kept their fire concentrated on Bill Clinton and pretty much left the civilians alone.

Fair-minded Americans know trafficking in hate is foolish and destructive. Howard Dean's anger may be amusing, but the unintended consequence is it has made him a joke. Dean can command a forum of true believers now, but America has always dismissed haters over time. And that's what will happen with Dean and anyone else who deals in character assassination.

I know some readers will disagree with that assessment, because the hate industry can be very profitable. But there's a price to pay for blood money. Let's look at two examples, one from each side. Ultra-right wing radio talk show host Michael Savage was recently ignored by most media when he attempted to hawk his new book, a kindly tome that says liberalism is a "mental disorder." Savage couldn't get booked anywhere in the national media. His use of personal attacks has made him radioactive.

Far-left guttersnipe Al Franken, whose defamation skills dwarf those of Savage, still has access to some media (which says something about industry bias), but in the last presidential campaign, John Kerry's handlers kept their candidate far away from Franken. Jimmy Carter took major heat for sitting close to Michael Moore at the Democratic Convention, and Kerry's advisors took note. Extremist associations are not good for any candidate.

Which is why Howard Dean's conduct is so strange. Do you think Hillary Clinton or any other democratic candidate for president in 2008 will want Howard campaigning for them? I can just hear it now: "I hate Republicans and so does Hillary! Hooorah!"

Despite the absurdity of Dean's demeanor and the chorus of fellow Democrats who want him to button it, the Governor remains unrepentant and seemingly untroubled with his tactics. Many in the left-wing press are solidly behind him, and the guy continues to talk the trash talk.

He does this because ol' Howard Dean knows something that many of us do not know: Hate means never having to say you're sorry.
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Cinecrap

Cinecrap

PostSecret

PostSecret

I wish Michelle would turn the music down--way too freaking loud!

Haven't updated this blog in a while. Yeah, yeah, I know-bad Janet. Let's see...what is new and exciting in my life besides absolutly nothing...

Saw some of my friends from high school for the first time since like graduation. Signed up to play intermural co-ed softball again this summer. (16" slow-pitch, if anyone cares. =-P ) Was interesting. I didn't feel like as much of an outsider as last summer when I tried hanging with the old crew. I still don't think I'll ever again be as close to them as I once was--we've all changed too much, I guess.

Still looking for a job, with no success. Some of the TNT college students actually have jobs by campus, so they're staying in that area. Wish that was an option for me; I'd be a lot closer to all my AQ friends. Ah well.

Geeze...how am I so tired when I just woke up like 7 hours ago? Oye...and I'm cold, too.

At the shing-ding tonight, Mrs. Pluchar had us fill out these salmon-colored forms with contact info and any activities we'd like to do as a college group. I put down some stuff the Catholic Studies Club at Aquinas has done that I've really liked, like Eucharistic Adoration, praise and worship, Bible studies, and the like. However, I fear it will be like high school all over again--I don't know if their hearts are any softer now than then, or if they've gotten even harder. =-\ Shows the contrast between TNT and my friends at Aquinas. I really hope my parents let me go back this fall...

Can't stop yawning...might just set InuYasha to tape tonight and hit the sack early. Dad, in his facisim, has decided to put a time limitor on my screen name for AOL. He forgets I know more about these things than he does... 0;-)

Yeah...so I have nothing to write...laters!

Clicky!

http://www.passthepotato.com/potato.php?potatoid=050524233643-686513

Also check this: http://www.institute-christ-king.org/ !!!!! ^_^

Rock out! Makes me happy to be Roman Catholic! ^_^

An Update

I should probably update this every so often.

Despirate for funds, I am going to try this Google Ad-Sense thing. You click, I get money. Still need to set it up, though.

Ewww...Michelle's watching some "Top Moments in Horror Film" thing. I think I am going to hurl. ICK ICK ICK ICK!!!

I think I could go shower now...ugh...

My sister is very sick and twisted. >_<

Educational, but trippy!

The Sounds of Pulsars

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Illinois Conservative Politics

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Catholic World News (CWN)

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Habemus Papam - EWTN TV and EWTN Radio, Global Catholic Networks Live Video of Catholic Programs 24 Hours a Day

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American Life League - Site Index

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Slashdot | iPods Valuable in the College Classroom?

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Pope Benedict XVI: EWTN Congratulations for the New Pope

Pope Benedict XVI: EWTN Congratulations for the New Pope

nintendo themes, a cappella (a choir performance of classic nintendo songs) - video

nintendo themes, a cappella (a choir performance of classic nintendo songs) - video

Raymond Arroyo on John Paul II and Rome on National Review Online

Raymond Arroyo on John Paul II and Rome on National Review Online

Onerock Online Forums -> Kissing And All That Lot...

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Blog censorship wins support: ZDNet Australia: News: Communications

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Onerock Online Forums -> Concecrated Host Sold On Ebay

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The New York Times > New York Region > No Need to Stew: A Few Tips to Cope With Life's Annoyances

The New York Times > New York Region > No Need to Stew: A Few Tips to Cope With Life's Annoyances

www.shibumi.org/EotI

www.shibumi.org/EotI

I'm powerless...

My family is falling apart. I can't be the savior, and I've lost the number for the One who can. I'm supposed to be the adult; how can I hold this together when I can't even hold my own mind together? The more I hear about what it's like when even just the other four Moerys are home, I fear more and more that we're getting too used to living apart physically as much as mentally and emotionally, and may eventually seek to make the situation permanent. I know I'm guilty of this--I've contemplated moving out and getting my own place up here many a time, and after graduation I still fully plan on doing so (though I'll probably spend that summer in Illinois to tie up any and all loose ends remaining there.) Michelle wants to go to college far enough from home to have an excuse to not go home if she doesn't want to, and Eileen...girl turned 12 years old today. At least Mom behaved herself today, for Eileen's sake. I called home twice, but couldn't get ahold of Eileen (first time she was at her drum lesson, second time, she'd gone to bed.) I'll try again sometime tomarrow.

Michelle is totally emotionally detatched, and ironically enough, a big way I can see it is that we're getting along alot better. I can't explain why...I guess you have to be there. I also fear I'm starting to do the same. I just don't want to react to anything anymore...if only my face were cast in stone, like it was before college. Didn't matter what I felt inside--I gave no one the pleasure of knowing.


This is totally the song of my life right now:

if you are near to the dark
I will tell you 'bout the sun
you are here, no escape
from my visions of the world
you will cry all alone
but it does not mean a thing to me

knowing the song I will sing
till the darkness comes to sleep
come to me, I will tell
'bout the secret of the sun
it's in you, not in me
but it does not mean a thing to you

the sun is in your eyes
the sun is in your ears
I hope you see the sun
someday in the darkness

the sun is in your eyes
the sun is in your ears
but you can't see the sun
ever in the darkness
it does not much matter to me

-----Emily Bindiger, .hack//SIGN


Oyasuminasai! / Guten Nacht!

Slashdot | USB Disco Dance Floor

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WOODTV.com & WOOD TV8 - Grand Rapids news and weather - Spring break ends in tragedy for Grand Rapids family

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Prayers for AQ Freshman Natalie Knott Who is in Serious Condition in Hospital :: The Moose :: Aquinas College Online Student Union

Prayers for AQ Freshman Natalie Knott Who is in Serious Condition in Hospital :: The Moose :: Aquinas College Online Student Union

CWN: Liberal Jesuits and the late Pope

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Onerock Online Forums -> American Catholics Seek Reform On Issues

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This is a website!!!

This is a website!!!

Blech blech blech blech blech!!!!

I. Feel. Like. Crud.

Upset stomach, but that seems to have calmed down, and my mood is just in the toilet because I'm so scared I won't be able to come back to Aquinas. I will seriously have a nervous breakdown if I have to resume living at home full-time. ;_; Lonely as all get out because I just don't feel like anyone gets what it feels like to be me. I wouldn't chose it if I had the option. <_< I just want the school year to be over, but I do NOT want to go home to Illinois. I just wish I could live up here on campus and just keep swiping into Wege (I probably still have enough meals left to do it, too! =-P ) This time when I go home, Dad may well not be around often, if at all, to keep Mom at bay. She refuses to get her depression treated, or to even talk about it or admit to having it. She's convinced we all are the problem and if we would just cooperate and be productive and do this, that, whatever, then everything would be perfect, and any sane person could tell her that isn't true. I still feel like I'm being regarded as an adult only when it means that one of my parents doesn't have to do something anymore. Grrr...

I just want to curl up into fetal positon on my bed (pretend for a moment that would be physically possible for me without excruciating {sp?} pain...) and sob my little eyes out, but that wouldn't help any. I'm 20 years old---crying isn't going to convince my parents to let me stay here. Crying's not natural for me either. (Then again, neither is dreaming, and I'm doing that alot lately because the freaking pills are causing me to have more REM cycles than I've ever had before while sleeping. I'm not sleeping as deep as I did, so I feel rotten in the mornings.)

Stupid printer's still broke. An RTA fiddled with it for almost an hour. Got the cartages moving again, but now the computer thinks it's done printing a document when it hasn't at all. Grrr...

Softball game tomarrow. Not really up to it, but since I'm already missing Sunday for a Band rehersal, I feel I should be at this one. Not like I'm going to hit anything. <_<

Well, my focus is shot, so that's the end of this entry.

Guten Nacht!

Vatican Cam!

Vatican Cam!!!

Weird Dreams...

I've been having some crazy dreams lately. Usually, I'm "dreaming episodes" of St. Tail or Prétear, like not episodes that actually aired, but just random stuff. Weirdness-dreaming in anime. I've been having strange dreams in general since I started the Zoloft. I've combed the medication's offical site over and again and I can't find whether this is supposed to happen. It's not a serious problem, but more than a slight nusance {sp?}. Maybe it's stress? No nightmares yet, but definatly dreams that I didn't like. Oye....

Listening to Japan-A-Radio as usual. Maybe I'll play some Anarchy Online before bed, but I have to call it a night early because I have my advising at 10:30AM tomarow. I'm bored. I finnished my CD200 homework at 1AM because I had nothing better to do.

I was suppoed to meet with Mr. Dooley from the CIS department today, but he had to cancel, so I'm meeting with him tomarrow after CD200. Tomarrow morning, I have to meet with Dr. Marko for my Theology advising. Fun, fun, fun. Hopefully, after this week I'll have a sturdy enough game plan in place to convince Mom to let me stay. Dad's convinced, but Dad is also usually persuaded by logic. Mom.... =-

Bis Spater!

Where words fail...

Music can pick up the slack. I'm listening to EWTN Radio right now, and they are playing the piece in my Current Music. We did this song my first semester here in College Chorus. At the time, I didn't really apprciate how beautiful the piece really is. Now, however, it fits perfectly. I'm going to snag the library's copy tomarrow and slap it onto my hard drive. (iTunes may have it, but I don't have enough in checking right now for that kind of thing.)

Just a lot of weird thoughts today, the biggest being "What's next?" I've been asking that question about almost everything these last few weeks. Kicked from the SoE, what's next? Mom doesn't want me to come back to Aquinas if I'm not going to be a teacher, what's next? What do I do with being half-done with college? Now the Pope's gone, what next? What next for the Church? I almost feel bad for the next Holy Father, because he has big shoes to fill. I really hope it's true what I hear, that the cardnals who are electing this next Pope are even more conservative than those who elected the late JPII. I fear some on the fringe of the Church may see John Paul's death as a good thing, because they feel that impediments to whatever, women/married priests, whatever, will be removed with a new Pope. I hope our new Pope is as wonderfully orthodox as JPII, and will stand firm against any and all that may try to attack the Church, seeing this time of transition as a moment of weakness.

I think this post, from a OneRocker, captures things well: http://hombre.diary-x.com/journal.cgi?entry=20050402

OK, my brain hurts and I need to make another round anyway (I'm at work.)

Bis Spater!

RIP, JPII

Requiem aeternam dona eis, Domine, et lux perpetua, luceat eis.

Cut and paste from my last LJ entry

mood:

Club Night rocked. biogeek500 and I played DDR for half an hour, and I got two firsts and a second! (Yeah, yeah, frankencow, you could still kick my butt. =-P)

I am offically happy with the Wege workers, because at dinner today they put on CNN and put a sign on the TV to not change the channel. ^_^ Watching the news show on EWTN right now. I'll go to bed when it's over. I have work tomarrow, though I don't have a super-amount of homework to do. Methinks I'll bring some manga to read.

Keep praying for the Holy Father. The Vatican seems to believe the Holy Father can go any moment now. Dad sent me an e-mail about it, just some thoughts, and I replied.

That reminds me. I think there's a bug in the voicemail system, because my parents were mad at me for not calling them back, and I didn't get what they were talking about, and just this afternoon, messages they left last night arrived in my box, so I don't know what's wrong there. Just what I need.

Also, Asuka Jr. has a small hole in his tail-fin, and I fear it may be the beginning of fin rot. Fin rot was the beginning of the end for the first Asuka, because he got 2 fungi right after he got that. Sadness. ;_;

OK, show's over, I'm off to sleep.

Guten Nacht!

Pretty much what I'm feeling.

ENGLISH:

no more words Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki Composer: CREA + DAI Arranger: Naoto Suzuki Surely, surely as we live we know more. And, and as we live we forget. Things that begin always have an end. If you can live on, think always of that. If this world were split into winners and losers, I'd rather be a loser. I always want to be a loser. Surely, surely we are more beautiful when we're sad. That's why, that's why we are dirtier when we're sad. To protect us and ours, we must sacrifice something yet again. Those who can live on think always of that. If this world were split into winners and losers, I'd rather be a loser. I always want to be a loser. What can I tell you? I'm just a small, helpless person. That's all I'll say for now because sometimes words ar completely powerless.

ROMAJI:

no more words sakushi: hamasaki ayumi sakkyoku: CREA + DAI henkyoku: suzuki naoto kitto kitto bokutachi wa ikiru hodo ni shitte yuku soshite soshite bokutachi wa ikiru hodo ni wasurete'ku hajimari ga aru mono ni wa itsu no hi ka owari mo aru koto iki to shi ikeru mono nara sono subete ni moshi mo kono sekai ga shousha to haisha to no futatsu kiri ni wakareru nara aa boku wa haisha de ii itsu datte haisha de itai n da kitto kitto bokutachi wa kanashii hodo ni utsukushiku yue ni yue ni boku tachi wa kanashii hodo ni yogorete'ku mamoru beki mono no tame ni kyou mo mata nani ka o gisei ni iki to shi ikeru mono tachi sono subete ga moshi mo kono sekai ga shousha to haisha to no futatsu kiri ni wakareru nara aa boku wa haisha de ii itsu datte haisha de itai n da boku wa kimi ni nani o tsutaerareru darou konna chippoke de chiisana boku de shika nai ima wa kore ijou hanasu no wa yametoku yo kotoba wa sou amari ni mo toki ni muryoku da kara

terrisfight: The Schindlers learned of Michael's ENGA

terrisfight: The Schindlers learned of Michael's ENGA

This ticks me off royally. My home state is screwed up. >_<

Res et Rationes

Calling All Feminists - or Those Who Pretend to Be

Well, that went as badly as I feared

Droped the School of Ed. bomb on my parents today. Went as badly as I feared it would. Dad, as usual, saw an uncontrollable situation and of course wanted me to grasp at any hint of a straw, so he can, through influencing me, regain control of the situation. Both refuse to pay for any more college until and unless I can show excatly when and how the investment will pay off. Grad school is absolutly not an option, and they believe there's nothing out there except teaching for a BA in History and Theology. Even my plan to squeeze in a CIS program didn't change their opinion any, since Dad doesn't think those jobs pay enough. So yeah...barring a miracle, (ie, I can magically pay my own tuition, room, and board,) this could very well be my last semester at Aquinas College. I'm going to register for classes anyway, but if you don't see me back, don't be surprised. It's a lot of money, and my parents refuse to pay it for anything else. This is not looking good. I told my parents that I had e-mailed Dr. Marko to see if I could do anything with a BA in Theology, and Dad made like I was a big fool. Just can't win, I swear...

So yeah, that's my Holy Saturday Horror Story.

Bis Spater!

virtual betta

virtual betta

Bored...time for a Blog update!

I'm bored. In Slim's room right now, putzing around. I have to do my history journal for tomarrow, which means I'll actually have to put my lappy in my room, so I can print it. Eh, I'm low on ink anyway, so methinks I'll e-mail it to Dr. Gunnoe. If I play my cards right, I could graduate with both of my BAs next May. If my parents will still let me stay 5 years, I might crank out a BS in Computer Information Systems. If I can't get a job then, I'll be rather confused and surprised. Here's hoping...

Ironic: Slim is updating her LJ as I type. I'll probably post this entry into LJ when I get back to Knape.

Hrrmmm...now that I think about it, I'll have to move my lappy out of the lounge anyway because of Bible Study tonight. Paul's leading it. He said something about Christology, so of course nothing good can come of this. =-P

Kicking some major hiney in Anarchy Online---level 5 already! ^_^ I am such a dork. Played Star Wars Battlefronts for the first time in over a week. I'm rather rusty. =-\ Oh well. I'll get back in the swing eventually.

My (tenative) Fall 2005 schedule:
(Drum roll, please =-P )
Japanese 101
East Asia I
Rennaisance {sp?} and Reformation
World War II
Christian View of the Human Person
Eucharist: Past, Present, and Future

No band or choir, though, because of East Asia I and Japanese, respectivly. Sadness. =-(

BRB. Nature Call.

OK, made an appoitment with the clinic. BIG surprise. Will explain later, if the time is ever right. Cross your fingers and lots of prayers, PLEASE! =-0

DANGIT DANGIT DANGIT!!!

Well, I got the boot from ANOTHER placement, and I didn't even get a freaking chance to defend/explain myself to the St. Stephen's people. GRRR!!! Turns out the more real reason Mrs. Reynolds came in to see me today was to tell me that I'm through. She's now with Dr. Marko in harping me about grad school, but what neither of them seem to understand is that this is FINANCIALLY NOT AN OPTION!!!! I've looked at both orthodox and unorthodox Catholic grad schools, and NONE of the orthodox ones have ANY financial aid, or if there is any, it's so limited as to be useless. Gah...never mind all the student loans even just my undergraduate degree is going to cause me. >_< I'm so ticked right now I could just scream!!!! Or maybe cry. I don't know. This TOTALLY screws up ALL my plans, and now there is NOTHING for me to do after college. C'mon, who in their right mind wants to hire some absent-minded IDIOT with just her BAs in History and Theology. Besides teaching, there's NOTHING for these degrees without grad school, which isn't an option, so I have NOTHING I can do after college, and 6 months after I graduate, massive student loans will start comming due and I will have NOTHING to pay them with!

THIS IS BAD!!!!

BAH! Later!

This is why I have a fish...=-P

silver_porpoise: This FROG! Poor Nicole. I am greatly amused, though. =-P This is why I have a fish. The extra kick is that, technically, we can only have pets at school that can survive underwater for 24 hours, (ie, in a tank and not going to hop into the hall ^_~) and for their first stages of life, frogs fit that.

In totally unrelated news, I went to my EN201 placement this morning, at St. Stephen's. My field supervisor wasn't there, so of course I had a good day. The students were working silently alot, but I did have a really good conversation with the English teacher. Of the junior high teachers, she's been there the longest, so she asked me a lot of good questions that they really don't make us think about in the seminar portion of EN201. She wants me to do the Science Olympiad this Saturday, but that's the day of KT's bridal shower, and I see so little of KT these days that I don't want to miss it.

OK, I'm distracted. This blog will have to wait until later.

DANGIT DANGIT DANGIT!!!

Well, I got the boot from ANOTHER placement, and I didn't even get a freaking chance to defend/explain myself to the St. Stephen's people. GRRR!!! Turns out the more real reason Mrs. Reynolds came in to see me today was to tell me that I'm through. She's now with Dr. Marko in harping me about grad school, but what neither of them seem to understand is that this is FINANCIALLY NOT AN OPTION!!!! I've looked at both orthodox and unorthodox Catholic grad schools, and NONE of the orthodox ones have ANY financial aid, or if there is any, it's so limited as to be useless. Gah...never mind all the student loans even just my undergraduate degree is going to cause me. >_< I'm so ticked right now I could just scream!!!! Or maybe cry. I don't know. This TOTALLY screws up ALL my plans, and now there is NOTHING for me to do after college. C'mon, who in their right mind wants to hire some absent-minded IDIOT with just her BAs in History and Theology. Besides teaching, there's NOTHING for these degrees without grad school, which isn't an option, so I have NOTHING I can do after college, and 6 months after I graduate, massive student loans will start comming due and I will have NOTHING to pay them with!

THIS IS BAD!!!!

BAH! Later!

Blah

Replaced first fish, which only lived a few days. Nicole rocks! ^_^ She's been a massive help with the pet thing.

Running a blog for the AQ GOP now: http://aqgop.blogspot.com It's still in the alpha stage (not even to beta yet) so it'll improve as I go.

Listening to one of the most beautiful songs ever, "Fake Wings," from .hack//SIGN. I LOVE it:

Shine, bright morning light
Now in the air the spring is comming
Sweet blowing wind
Singing down the hills and valleys
Keep your eyes on me
Now we're on the edge of hell
Dear my love
Sweet morning light
Wait for me, you've gone much farther
Too far

Guten Nacht!

FISHIE!!!

I gots a fishie!!! It's a male betta, and I've named him Auska {sp?} after the main male character in my favorite anime, Kaitou Saint Tail. I ran an image search and found a pic of his kind of betta:


Soooo awesome! I'll be bringing him back to Knape Sunday, when I come back with Martha. Yay! ^_^

Bis Spater!

Another Quiz...

Take the quiz at dicepool.com

Future President of the United States of America

Future President of the United States of America


Heh heh heh....=-P

Because an elephant never forgets!

Because an elephant never forgets!

My latest pet project for the AQ GOP. Hoping it works better than the website did.

DANG YOU AQ SoE!

OK, apparently Mr. Hamilton failed to notify me that the normal teachers won't be in when I was going to go in, so I would be observing subs, so my feild supervisor wants me to just not come in. As happy as I am to not have to see her, these are hours I won't be getting that I NEED! Ugh. So I'm here until Sunday. Peachy. Great. Oh, and of course Mrs. Fellinger couldn't pass on a chance to be a *(&##!!!! to me, gah! I e-mailed Prof. Clatterbuck, as per Elisabeth and Kelsy's recomendation, so I hope that works out.

Bis Spater!

Last time I took this I was 70% good! Scroll down and see!

You're Sesshoumaru, 70% Evil! You pretend to be
incredibly evil, but you're not as bad as you
try to be. You have a soft spot if people can
reach it... plus you're dead sexy!


How Evil or Good Are You in InuYasha Standards?
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GRRR-Rant Time

OK, just got an e-mail from my field supervisor. Apparently, the teachers at St. Stephen's will tell her when I'm messing up, but not me. Am I the only one who sees a problem here?! So yeah, I'm getting reamed out both today at my placement while she and I were in the library, and again just now in e-mail, for not psychically knowing where I'm messing up. EXCUSE ME! I AM STILL NOT A MIND READER! GRRR!!!!

Unless significance improvements are made in the areas we discussed, and those concerns voiced by the staff, teaching in a K-12 situation might not be appropriate for you, nor an area where you can be effective. As I told you today, I am sure that you are a very bright woman, but the area of teaching young people might not be your niche. Each one of us has been given different talents--the important thing is to pursue a profession where we can best use them.

Easy for someone who's retired to just tell me to find another line of work, after I've already spent so much of my college career on this one! HELLO! JOB MARKET! I support President Bush and all that, but he's not a magician, and the economy is still recovering, much slower than anyone would like. Translation? My options are limited with a BA in Theology! I can't even go into Religious Education without a teaching certificate! (Yes, I have checked, believe me.) If I get pulled from this placement, or if she does to me what she did to Rosanne, (AFTER Rosanne had finnished her 40 hours, told her she needed to re-do them all,) I don't GET a third chance! WHY does the SoE have the most anal people in the school working for it? (Well, maybe the Women's Study Center comes close, but you know what I mean...)

I was actually in a REALLY FREAKING GOOD MOOD TODAY, UNTIL this words-I-cannot-use decided to mess me up! DANGIT! I AM TRYING! SORRY I wasn't walking out of my mother's womb with a grade book and Teacher's Edition in one hand and a piece of chalk in the other! FLIPPING DANGIT!

Ugh...I need to get back to Christology. >_<

Guten Nacht!

Rock out! Lowest scores yet!

Results:

Your Total Score is 14

(Range 0-27)
None 0-5
Mild 6-10
Moderate 11-15
Severe 16-20
Very Severe 21+

NOTE: The above cutoff points are based largely on clinical judgement rather than on empirical data.

© 2000, A. John Rush, M.D., Quick Inventory of Depressive Symptomatology (Self Report) (QUIDS-SR)



Your score was 25 out of a possible 45.

These answers indicate that you have moderate depresion. You may find it helpful to talk about this with someone.You may also find it helpful to repeat this test from time to time; tracking your score and your responses may help you recognize when depression is beginning to build, or perhaps to understand what events might trigger your depression.



Being done with Holoquad is probably a major factor. All I really have to worry about now is Christology for Friday. =-S Get to start that paper tomarrow, after I get back from St. Stephens. Lovely...

Guten Nacht!

GRRR!!!

Guess who oversleped and missed class again....yep. Missing Band and Choir, too, simply because I have WAY TOO MUCH TO DO!!!!! GAH!!!

Fun site: http://club.pep.ne.jp/~hiroette/en/facemarks/

Well, off to the library!

Procrastinating....Quizilla Style!

you represent the hard times in life. you have a
hard life yourself and a hidden self many don't
know about.


What part of life do you represent? ( AWESOME anime pics ^_^)
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Your anime hair color is purple.


What is your anime hair color?
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The Goddess of Water and Anger. You are a reclusive
loner . Always wary and deliberate, once youve
got a friendship, its for life and you are
exceptionally considerate. You are a serene
beauty.


Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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You are a dark angel! You don't want to be an
angel, banished from the race of goddesses you
were forced to live as an angel, because you
abused your power. Now you are powerless,
except to help others, you are very lonely and
reflect a lot.


Which natural angel are you? (awe-inspiring pics!)
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And finally:

You are independant and don't need a guy yet.


What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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Kitty!

By the Numbers...

Your score was 30 out of a possible 45.

These answers indicate that you have moderate depresion. You may find it helpful to talk about this with someone.You may also find it helpful to repeat this test from time to time; tracking your score and your responses may help you recognize when depression is beginning to build, or perhaps to understand what events might trigger your depression.

Results:

Your Total Score is 18

(Range 0-27)
None 0-5
Mild 6-10
Moderate 11-15
Severe 16-20
Very Severe 21+

NOTE: The above cutoff points are based largely on clinical judgement rather than on empirical data.

© 2000, A. John Rush, M.D., Quick Inventory of Depressive Symptomatology (Self Report) (QUIDS-SR)


Right now, I think I'm feeling the effects of stress more than anything else. Hopefully, things will improve after this week, though goodness knows what will happen while I'm at home. Seems things are OK there, other than this being the time of year where colds migrate from my sisters' classrooms to them to the rest of the family, so if I come back with a bug in my system, I won't be terribly suprised. Ah well. Such is life.

Back to work!

Bis Spater!

Quiz time...

Your element is Rain: Sad, lonely, distant and
unique. You are quite distant from emotion and
people, but you have been made this way by one
thing or another. You are truly unique yet fail
to see it, and are quite creative be it in art,
music, writing, etc. You used to let people in
now you don't even bother to try having been
hurt so many times in the past. Your attitude
is that you don't need anyone but yourself,
people are just trouble waiting to happen. But
you really do want to trust someone no matter
if you see it or not, deep down your waiting
for someone to come and set you free. This kind
of depression can turn dangerous, don't let
them get to you. Not everyone in the world will
hurt you, humans are humans and are not
perfect. So most likely sooner or later you'll
meet someone who feels like you do and perhaps
your shell will eventually disappear.


.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and
really an i dont' care attitude. You like to be
alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't
like to be around others and you'd rather be
away from here. You have a get away from me
look and others find you bitchy and
self-rightious. You'd rather read than be at a
fair but that's ok because that's who you are.


Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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Huh?

You are an earth Dragon! You have a knack for
Nature or animals, and are peaceful, careful,
chariming, and optimistic. You can throw a
tantrum now or then, but who doesnt? You value
simple things in life, such as friends,
familly, and Nature.


What elemental dragon are you?
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You are Dark

You are a dark person.
Secretive, and a bit depressed. It's either by
problems in your life, or your attitude towards
things. People feel depressed or sad whenever
they're around you, but it's what you think
right? Don't care about what other people
think? I agree with you on that, but do take
care.




What's The Girl Inside of You? .:BEAUTIFUL Anime Pics AND Music!:. (UPDATED!)
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Sorry to tell you this, but you are depressed...
What's wrong? When it's full moon, go and take
a look... It makes me happy, maybe it will help
for u to? Never give up, no mather what! Plzz
rate...


~~Are you a bit Depressed? Are you Happy?~~*With Anime pics*
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Independence

Your angel seeks for freedom.
Your angel is part of you. Thus, you are the
kind of person who values your indepence than
most things in this world. Don't get angry if
I'm wrong, but you may be a pained person.
Problems in your life have caused you to be
depressed, or, shall we say, greatly saddened.
You may have lost hope many times, but you
still manage to keep your independence. You
don't listen to anyone but yourself. People may
look at you in a "different" way, but
inside, you want all the pain to stop, but you
have a hard time expressing it. I wish you
well!



What's Your Angel Seeking For? .:BEAUTIFUL Anime Pics AND Music!:.
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I am Kong. Strong and passionate, I tend to be misunderstood, sometimes even feared. I don't want to fight, I don't want to cause trouble, all I ask is a little love, and a little peace. If I don't get what I want, I get angry, and throw barrels and flaming oil at whatever's stopping me. What Video Game Character Are You?

If you were not Kong, you would be:

I am Pacman. I am an aggressive sort of personality, out to get what I can, when I can. I prefer to avoid confrontation, but sometimes when it's called for, I can be a powerful character. I tend to be afflicted with munchies constantly. What Video Game Character Are You?

Ugh

I hate homework. Actaully, if I get at least 6 pages written today, 6 tomarrow, (though I obviously hope to do much better than that,) I will probably be fine for getting my Holocaust quad take-home final done. I can hole up in the library tomarrow night and until Tuesday. Also, due to EN201, I couldn't take my Christology final on Wednesday even if I wanted to, so that final and the paper are Friday now, and if I have to miss band or choir to do those, then so be it (though, and the reverse should probably be true, I would rather miss choir than band.) I also have lots of reading still to finnish for both classes, though more for Holocaust quad than Christology.

Such is the life of a college student.

Back to work now! =-\

Procrastinating....

Dangit-why can't Dr. Lewis take MLA papers like every-freaking-one freaking else does? Grrr.....14 sources that need to be alphabatzied and properly cited. I hate this...


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Ummm....

OK, finally back in room and alone at 4AM...sleep.....will post tomarrow. Somehow I have to squeeze in Confession while re-writting a massive research paper. As soon as that one's done, I have another to do. I hate this.

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Screw You

This is offically my "Screw All Y'all" blog, ie Janet totally uncensored, (beyond the no-cussing thing.) I'm not holding anything back here, and I could freaking care less WHO I offend.

Will debut new post after dinner. I've been munching Sun Chips since I got in my room, but I'd like something of more substance now.




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It's probably a bad thing to eat half of a huge bag of chips single-handedly in one night...

Let's see....what's new with this one....well, the anti-depressant (Lexapro) hasn't done much other than cause me to have the worst class attendance record I've ever had since 1st grade and has made my moods worse. I e-mailed my World History prof to explain myself after missing class for like the 3rd time in two weeks, and like 5th all semester, not counting when I was absent due to March for Life. He, thank goodness, was understanding. I couldn't explain how much that means to me.

Got steamed as all Hades today when I came back from Becca's dorm to find that one of Dominic's friends, Lisa, had brought alcohol over to the house (mind you, only two of the people who live here [RA not included] are old enough, and neither of them were home at the time,) and Meg and Claire were drunk, Claire off her rear end, Meg only enough that you could tell, and I think event that was just because of a medication she's on right now. Claire, a) hasn't slept in somewhere from 3-5 days, has been drinking coffee almost literally non stop, and has been popping Dexatrin (Dexatrim? Couldn't quite understand her speech,) like I'm popping chips as I write this entry. End result? She was all over. I wanted to cry, because I didn't know what to do. Sure, I had imagined myself doing the right thing, being all noble and all that when confronted with this situation, but when it actually happened...
AQ has a stern "guilt by association" alcohol policy, so I made sure to hightail it right to my room, since those girls were in the kitchen, which is a public area of the house. I should have told the RA, done SOMETHING, but I paniced, because Catholic Studies Club is in the process of reapplying to get this house again for next year, and this would have killed us in the water. =-( I feel like such a wimp, not even standing for my convictions. I didn't drink, but I believe breaking the rules and the law is morally wrong. >Sigh<

AQ seems to be going into Hades in a handbasket. I'll explain that more later. Since some OneRockers use Blogger, I'm going to try and update this more often. How do I do the thing where I link to other things? One reason I stopped using Blogger for so long was because of how hard it is to customize anything, or at least to figure out how to. Live Journal is fairly idiot proof, even for an idiot like me. ^_~

That's all for now. I need sleep. I always need sleep.

Guten Nacht!




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Operation Snowball and the IL Teen Institute

Operation Snowball and the IL Teen Institute

New Look

Yayness!


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Bored

I wanna go home. School is too stressful. This crud with the SoE makes me not even WANT to be a teacher anymore. I just want to get married, have kids, and be a stay-at-home mom and homeschool the kids. Doesn't pay, but I think I could actually do it. =-( Ugh.